LogicDefect

Heyo, darlings.

Oh golly. Am I inactive over here! I'll be surprised if you dearies hadn't forgotten little old me.
Not like you don't have a reason. Or that I'd be upset in any way. Nah.

But, uh. I have my reasons. And not one of those is wanting to make anyone feel neglected or something.
Silly old me is just losing his battle against depression, and, uh.

well if i said i didn't want to die i would be lying ahah

It's just... I'm tired. Diagnosed with a burnout because guess who overworked himself literally to the limit?
Oh yes it's me!

Take care, darlings. Hope your year's going well.

On my other account.

TeardropsI will disappear,
Like tear drops do in those of rain.
I'll still be, just unseen,
No longer will I stay in here.
It shouldn't feel any good,
But shouldn't hurt much, either,
That we aren't one any more
Not close, and not far.
Long unspoken words,
Silently deep in our thoughts,
With faded bits of memories,
We cover bits of our scars.
It's a different person now,
Whom we can say “I love you”
And it's a different person too,
With whom we can dream.
I've seen you on your own,
I've seen you with someone.
You've even glanced my way,
From a distant dream world.
I've seen you far away,
In light and darkness,
Covered in thick fogs,
But the memories simply fade.
It's a different person now,
Whom we can say “I love you”
And it's a different person too,
With whom we can still dream,
About our future we might get one day.
It hurts how you're not here,
Otherwise I'm just fine.

Like, guys, do y'all even remember Tyehlicska? Not exactly where I'd started, but it played a significant role in establishing my deviantArt identity, and was one of the most important things related to socialisation in the ~2010 era. For me, it was the social platform! And I drew shit, too! This site, and on that account, is where I met a bunch of wonderful people, including my soulmate (though where I fucked up is something completely different), and gosh, the many wonderful hours I'd spent there, yay~

Looking at the gallery and shit untouched for years left me with the most bitter heartache I've experienced in a while. Ain't had shit like that since mah last breakup, and the shit I left like over half a year afterwards, more or less because of it.
I'd so, so go back, like, a couple of years back, to maybe 2009-2011 or so, and start over from there. Daaaayumn, I done my life all fucked up. I want it back, but at the same time I don't feel like I deserve it.

So yeah, I went from this cheerful guy who rants relatively often, to this depressed wreck who just hates things.

But heyyyy, on the plus side, I translated an Edda song into English a while ago. Will anyone give a fuck if I upload it?

So, uh-
Anyone got any idea how do I remove that "traditional art / hobbyist" thing from my profile? It irks me because I don't actually draw anymore, so I don't want to be identified as someone who does.
Not like anybody outside of me cares, but my feels are important to me because I'm a pathetic dummy like that.

Quite possibly because I ain't doing a single thing with it.

Uh, yeah, so this is the usual "I'm not dead Journal", so my dear friends I obviously care a lot about know that, uh, I'm not dead.
So.
I had my first visit at the psychodoodleplacething. The nice old man I talked to was... nice.
Sentences, I'm so good at them. But I'll get better once my teaching starts.
Aw yeah.
I'm gonna teach English at this privately-owned academy sort of place. Duuude.
And work at McDoodle's at the same bloody time, 'cause such is life and I deal with it like the cool guys do.
F@&kin' 'ell tho, I wanna cry. -goes to sob in corner of pillow fortress-
Studying is demotivating, I feel disgust when I open a textbook or something, I don't even feel like playing vidya games, and when I do, I don't have time, my focus is all over everywhere and other sorts of "oh woe is me".
I tried to get back to art. Aside from the tiniest of doodles, I haven't done a thing. I haven't drawn in like two years (makes me feel old), so obviously I'm rusty as a word that starts with f.
that word is fungus, duh
everyone knows that fungi are rusty
have you been living under a rock, James?
I want to get a bunny and name it Mimislav George Svätopluk John William IV the Fuzzy.
I have serious plans on getting a 3DS. Because even if I got myself a hardcore gaming laptop (which was the original plan, but a 3DS is like eight times cheaper), I wouldn't really be able to play on it if I feel like slumping in the middle of my wonderful pillow fortress full of soft fuzzy plushies.
Because I'm a grown up man and if I want to mother!#&ing snuggle plushies, then I will do so.
(I'll wait for the New 3DS to come out though, it'll be cheaper and have a more powerful CPU. I can wait with Aminal Crossing and New Yoshi's Island until then.)

#clearlyinterestingfunfacts

Yeah, I'm alive, I'll dive through my inbox once I'll have a bit of more time. -sips from tea-
I should buy some.